Post by F1r3f0x on Mar 8, 2007 17:49:58 GMT -5
Hello =o, it is I, Firefox. If you haven't been on the server for about a year, this entire post will make you go, "Who the !$^! is this guy?". The following wall o' text I will present to you is not some bullshitted piece of work that I made to allow me back on your server to terrorize you subtly or otherwise. I respect your decision no matter what course it takes.
It has been almost over a year that I have been banned, (The ban date listed in my profile is May 27) and I think that I should have another chance to be a part of the AC server.
I loved the AC clan server. It was easily in my top 3 favorite CS servers of all time, and the only one in CS:S of the three. I had many great times in the AC server, although some things got me in a bit o trouble. I'm sure many of you have had some good times and some bad times with me. Please, do not block out the good times for whatever reason that you may have. I do not ask for you to forget all the bad times that I have inflicted on to the server and it's members, for you have great reason to remember these.
I fully understand that I was extremely childish before and have said and done things that I should of never of done. I was a total and COMPLETE stat PUPPIES!. I always checked my rank and the top 10 to check my status. I teamstacked to further my rank, which is something that shouldn't be done. I also verbally spouted some very childish things also, (a certain "I'm the Juggernaugt, B***H" phrase comes to mind right now), I've learned to grow up in the past year (take a month if you wish). My sophomore year of highschool has taught me how to grow up, well atleast I believe so.
Was what I did really worthy of a permanent ban? Did I really harm someone in such a way that I should never be allowed to play on the server again? If I'm am missing something completely and something is going way over my head, please tell me. But, I do not think that I did anything seriously wrong that deserved a permanent ban. If you are thinking that the tampered with screen shot of my ban was enough then I plead you to listen.
I NEVER had ANY intention of releasing that after I had the brilliant idea to create it. It was created as a forethought and was completely stupid. I gave it to two people if I recall correctly, and I thought it was the untampered with version, I acted stupidly and tried to cover it up when it was detected. I am very sorry for this series of bad actions. If you are thinking that my mad rage thread was worthy of a permanent ban, I am telling you that that was completely made in a fit of anger and rage and I didn't completely mean it at the time, though I thought that you guys were some shit admins back then. After some thought and incounterances with admins FAR FAR worse than you were doing, I figured that your actions were that of a normal admin doing good will for your server.
I do believe that a near one year ban covers these charges even if I meant them to be 100%, though I never really did mean them, especially the photoshoped log.
If you have anything you want me to explain about what I think/feel/believe/etc. then please ask it. I know that I have supporters out there, and I would like you to please help me out here, though I will not call you out personally, for whatever reasons that you might have. I am not completely fun drained either and just a shell of what I was, I believe I shed a lot of the bad about me and have kept a good deal of the good inside me, though it is your opinion and you are completely right in keeping it if you feel otherwise.
One thing that I would love is that if I got a three day unban probation period in which I can prove myself to be AC-worthy.
/wallotext
BTW, I didn't copy the one I made like 6 months ago =P.
It has been almost over a year that I have been banned, (The ban date listed in my profile is May 27) and I think that I should have another chance to be a part of the AC server.
I loved the AC clan server. It was easily in my top 3 favorite CS servers of all time, and the only one in CS:S of the three. I had many great times in the AC server, although some things got me in a bit o trouble. I'm sure many of you have had some good times and some bad times with me. Please, do not block out the good times for whatever reason that you may have. I do not ask for you to forget all the bad times that I have inflicted on to the server and it's members, for you have great reason to remember these.
I fully understand that I was extremely childish before and have said and done things that I should of never of done. I was a total and COMPLETE stat PUPPIES!. I always checked my rank and the top 10 to check my status. I teamstacked to further my rank, which is something that shouldn't be done. I also verbally spouted some very childish things also, (a certain "I'm the Juggernaugt, B***H" phrase comes to mind right now), I've learned to grow up in the past year (take a month if you wish). My sophomore year of highschool has taught me how to grow up, well atleast I believe so.
Was what I did really worthy of a permanent ban? Did I really harm someone in such a way that I should never be allowed to play on the server again? If I'm am missing something completely and something is going way over my head, please tell me. But, I do not think that I did anything seriously wrong that deserved a permanent ban. If you are thinking that the tampered with screen shot of my ban was enough then I plead you to listen.
I NEVER had ANY intention of releasing that after I had the brilliant idea to create it. It was created as a forethought and was completely stupid. I gave it to two people if I recall correctly, and I thought it was the untampered with version, I acted stupidly and tried to cover it up when it was detected. I am very sorry for this series of bad actions. If you are thinking that my mad rage thread was worthy of a permanent ban, I am telling you that that was completely made in a fit of anger and rage and I didn't completely mean it at the time, though I thought that you guys were some shit admins back then. After some thought and incounterances with admins FAR FAR worse than you were doing, I figured that your actions were that of a normal admin doing good will for your server.
I do believe that a near one year ban covers these charges even if I meant them to be 100%, though I never really did mean them, especially the photoshoped log.
If you have anything you want me to explain about what I think/feel/believe/etc. then please ask it. I know that I have supporters out there, and I would like you to please help me out here, though I will not call you out personally, for whatever reasons that you might have. I am not completely fun drained either and just a shell of what I was, I believe I shed a lot of the bad about me and have kept a good deal of the good inside me, though it is your opinion and you are completely right in keeping it if you feel otherwise.
One thing that I would love is that if I got a three day unban probation period in which I can prove myself to be AC-worthy.
/wallotext
BTW, I didn't copy the one I made like 6 months ago =P.
(that was not a shot at anyone and if you interpret it that way i apologize) like i said the walls have eyes i gtg!
